TOOWOOMBA truck driver Trevor Povey doubts the memories of an horrific crash which killed an 11-year-old boy and a 38-year-old man will ever leave him.
He knows the crash was not his fault, but that knowledge does not remove the chaotic images of that January morning from his mind.
Mr Povey was driving a B-double laden with bananas through Urunga, near Coffs Harbour, about 5am on January 8 this year when he and his passenger nephew saw a ute coming around a corner towards them.
"All I saw was a hand go down and then his head go down and then bang'," Mr Povey said.
"As he was coming towards me all I could keep thinking was 'this is not my fault, this is not my fault'."
The impact crippled the truck's steering and brakes and sent him and his nephew careering from the Pacific Hwy into two houses.
Penrith boy Max MacGregor, 11, was killed when the truck crashed into a room in which he was sleeping.
The driver of the ute, 38-year-old David Levett, died at the scene.
He was later found to have had a blood alcohol content of 0.245%, nearly five times the legal limit.
Mr Povey spent eight days in hospital recovering from broken ribs and a punctured lung.
He is now working hard with a psychologist and counsellors to heal his mental scars.
"Sometimes I sit out in the back garden and I can still see the truck sitting there."
Trans- Help charity CEO Dianne Carroll travelled from New South Wales to meet Mr Povey in Toowoomba yesterday.
"We support transport drivers and their families in crisis around Australia," Mrs Carroll said.
She said she had previously spoken with Mr Povey on the telephone many times since the incident.
"They know we understand the industry."
Mr Povey said he hoped to one day return to driving trucks.
"I don't know when I am going to be able to not see the ute and the truck."